In the not too distant past, I would have started this section with “I’m an Operating Room Nurse.” A few year’s and a Master’s degree after that, I could say “I’m an OR Nurse Manager.” I defined myself by what I did, before anything else. Three year’s after getting my “dream job” I realized I hated it. I didn’t like what I was doing, and I didn’t much care for the person I was, either. So, in spite of a 20% cut in pay, I left. Money is not worth your sanity, your relationships, or your soul. It’s not worth your self-esteem, your self-confidence, or all of your time. It’s just not. Now I’m a nurse educator, and everyone is just so nice, it’s mind-boggling.
This career crisis, among other things, precipitated some hard thinkin’ on my part. I climbed the career ladder because that was what I thought I needed to do. That’s what we are taught, right? Work hard, get promoted, buy a big house, two cars, and a timeshare. Live the American Dream. I finally realized the American Dream isn’t really about accumulating more stuff, or having an important-sounding job. It’s about provision of basic needs; food shelter, warmth. Things that allow us to live happy, healthy lives, doing the things we love, surrrounded by people we care about.
Sometimes I wish I could have a do-over. I feel like I have not lived much of my adult life in a positive way; in a way that focuses on people, relationships, and personal happiness. Well, it’s time to start doing those things! To make family and home a priority, and start doing what brings me joy, and some inner peace.
I’m happiest when I’m digging in the dirt. I love being outside, helping things grow, and then enjoying the harvest. I started a garden, which was the first step on the path that lead to homesteading. And now here I am, at the beginning of a new adventure.
My hubby Brad and I are building our forever home, and starting a homestead on two acres in the heart of Oklahoma. I’ve got big plans for our little patch of green, and I can’t wait to get started!